What happened when I set the intention to ‘grow a whole new business’ without knowing what I was going to do…

For those of you that have been following me a while, you’ll remember that back in August I made an announcement: I said I was ready for a big new challenge. I wanted to “create and run and grow, in quite a big way, a business”.

Watching the video again, what strikes me more than anything is that I seem compelled to do this, without having a clue of how or what I’m actually going to do it. I say in the video “it’s like I have this energy to do it, it’s as if this role is calling for me to fill it“.

And I love that.

I am the first to put my hand up to say I try to force myself to be ready for a lot of things in life before I actually am – to make more money, to have kids, to be in a relationship, to take my business to the next level. I want everything now. I don’t like to have to wait until I’m ready, until some unknown mysterious source within me, which frustratingly seems to have NO sense of urgency to it, decides ‘it’s time’.

But when it does happen. When I act out of a sense that ‘now is simply the time, there is no rhyme or reason to it’ the experience is amazing. There is no rush, no urgency. I give myself time, enjoy the process (with the occasional bout of impatience and frustration) and I don’t overload it with heavy expectations or judgements which kills most possibility. It’s not driven by need. My future happiness or survival doesn’t depend on it so there is no unnecessary pressure for it to work or I may as well curl up and die.

When it happens this way I enjoy the unknown, the unknown becomes this delicious bottomless melting pot
where I throw in a guerrilla bomb of intentions and see what emerges. I’ve not got a fixed idea in my head of what I want and therefore the doors of what is possible are thrown wide open. Rather than trying to force things, I’m allowing them to emerge.

And I could never have guessed at what did eventually emerge. While I was focusing on where I thought the action was going to be, a partnership was being forged and a business idea slowly coming to light, naturally and with total synergy, without us even noticing it at first. When it finally hit us it was as if it was the most natural and obvious thing to do in the world and having started bringing it to life we’ve found it flows with such power and ease and with such a delicious vibrant energy that people seem immediately drawn towards it. We have friends diving in to help bring it life from all angles. I’ve never experienced anything like it.  But if you’d told me at the start of the year that this would be my new businessI would have laughed you out of the room.

And is if that weren’t enough, at the same time emerged an idea for my very own brand with matching logo (something I’ve always wanted, like a kid that dreams of having a pony), a book idea that I’m going to nurture and allow to grow in it’s own good time and another collaboration that I feel is going to make some serious waves out there in the world.

By putting my intention out there, chucking it out into the unknown and letting things unfold naturally, without trying to force it or rush things along (not too much anyway!),  I got WAY more than I had bargained for. Way more than I had dared to imagine. But that always seems to be the way when I just let things evolve and unfold naturally. When I keep my impatience under control. Don’t try to force or manipulate but let things grow and allow things in.

Now I am longing to announce to you what all these things are. But again, it’s not quite time. It’s good to have these out of public view while each of these things finds it’s feet and takes shape without the scrutiny of onlookers.

Instead what I would like to do over the next few weeks is share with you my ‘Goodbye 2013, Hello 2014’ process with you and invite you to join in and do it too. I’ve been doing it for the past five years and it has made those 5 years incredible and unforgettable years.

So watch out for the next email I send which will include a free ‘Goodbye 2013, Hello 2014’ download.

x Selina

Selina Barker